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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Who is this Man???

While dancing our way through the Christmas season and ultimately through the New Year, I have been profoundly affected by the lack of knowledge that others have about Christ. So, here is my little description of Christ using few words but mostly pictures...

Christ is God. He is the humanity of God. He is the great I AM...

Christ is the Spring of Water that gives us...

Christ says...
Whoever Enters... Through the Gate... Will Be SAVED!!!



You see Christ died on the cross for you and for me. He died so that we may live eternally (have everlasting Life) and so that we could be forgiven. Without Christ, we would be nowhere. Christ paid the ultimate sacrifice and gave the ultimate gift by giving His life when He could have just said "No, I won't do it!" But, God loved us so much He gave His only Son in order that we may live with Him FOREVER!!!



So, who is this man???



He is...


Our Savior!!!
(Do you see the cross?)


So, are we really entitled to all we have??? Do we deserve the nice cars, beautiful homes, XBOX, new boots, and so on??? The answer is no, we don't even come close to deserving what we have. Thank goodness, because what we deserve is far worse than we could even imagine. Because of Christ we do not get what we deserve. We deserve a life far away from God, but Christ paid our price and forgives us of our sins and we are able to see Jesus in Heaven if we just (A) admit that we are sinners. (B) Believe that Jesus is God's Son. And (C) Confess Jesus as our Savior and our Lord. This is not of good works. You cannot save yourself. However, if you know Christ, your good works will shine through. This is because of Christ and what He did on the cross.

My prayer for all of us today is that we will one day meet our maker and hear Him say these words..."Well done good and faithful servant."

P.S. Okay, so there were more words than I had thought.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

CRAZY Weekend!!!

Well, this weekend was a wonderful weekend. We had our family Christmas party at my brother Charlie's house. I forgot my camera though, so I might have to see if I can get some pics to upload on here for you guys to see. However, it was a fun filled afternoon at their house. wonderful time of family and friends! After that party, we all hurried to my house before my parents could get there for my Dad's surprise party. The family Christmas party was over at 6pm, but Jonathan and I left a little early to make sure we would be back in time for my dad's friends and family to show up. Dad and Mom got there at about 7:30pm and we had baout 65 people on my driveway waiting for him to get there. He was sure surprised!!! We got him so good. Here are a few pictures from the party!


After all was said and done, we had a wonderful turn out and a wonderful day with friends and family. I am so glad Dad did not know anything about his party...he was SO SURPRISED!!!

On Sunday, we decided to take some fun pictures of our puppies and kitty cat because we just do not have nearly enough already...yea right;)




What can I say...they are the highlight of our lives...for now!!!

Love Always,

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Jingle Bell Run

Well, it is a little after 10pm and we finished the Jingle bell run this afternoon. It was a lot of fun! It benefitted the arthiritus foundation and there were a lot of arthiritus sufferers out there in wheelchairs or people were running in honor of them. It was a blessing to see!
Jonathan and I did a mixture of running and walking and with 3.1 miles, we did it in 47 minutes. This is a bad time if you are an avid runner, but for Jonathan and I we were comfortable with it. Here are a few pictures of us before the run and after as well as the Christmas tree that lights up downtown. ENJOY!!!


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Jingle Bell Run!!!



Well, this Saturday in the Jingle Bell run and Jonathan and I are participating in it. Jonathan could run the whole thing, me on the other hand, I might have to walk some. However, I am very excited that we are signed up and following through with it. Festivities start at 2:30 at Sundance Square in Ft. Worth, but the run/walk is not until 5pm. So it might be a little chilly, oh well! Pray for us and our friends that have signed up with us. It is our first fun run/walk, but I have a feeling it will not be the last. I would love to join the leukemia and lymphoma society and do their fun run/walk.

I hope you all have a BLESSED day!

Holly

A Little Late

Well, as we all know, Thanksgiving has come and gone! However, I would like to post a few things I am thankful for. My top 10 if you will:
10. I am thankful for a home to live in.
9. I am thankful for a vehicle to drive (a new one at that :))
8. I am thankful for a job that provides for my necessities and then some.
7. I am thankful for my continued health.
6. I am thankful for my pets who give me laughs and joy everyday (yes, even Toby! ha ha! on the right).
Gracie, Zoe, Toby




5. I am thankful for my schooling
4. I am thankful for all of my loving friends and those that aren't so loving (he he!)
3. I am thankful for my family who has stood beside me in everything I have done and being there when things didn't go so well. I love you guys and you truly are a gift from God. You will never know how much I truly cherish your love, friendship and devotion in my life.
2. I am thankful for my wonderful husband who also has stood by me when life gave us lemons. We have survived A LOT together and without you by my side and holding my hand, I do not know that I would have seen the light on the other side. You are an inspiration and a motivation for me and I LOVE YOU!!!
1. Most of all I am thankful for God. He has given me life, He died so that I could live and He deserves my ALL. He has been there in my most dark and trying times and brought me through them all. He gave me my family, friends and my husband to show me His true love and strength. He knows everything about me and for that I am TRULY THANKFUL!!! Thank you God for Dieing on the cross for my sins and rising on the third day to show me that I can have life through you if I just believe and confess. You are my ALL IN ALL!!!

As Christmas is approaching, I would like to challenge you to remember what the Christmas time is all about. Remember to be thankful and humbled that Christ came and died for YOU. God gave up His only Son so that in Him, we could live eternally. YOU are the reason that Jesus was born!!!
God bless and have a wonderful December!!!
In Him,
Holly

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Test Results!!!

Well fans...just so you know, all of my test results came back clear!!! I'm still cancer free!!! We serve an AMAZING God! He is So GOOD!!!
Thanks for all of your prayers!
In Him,
Holly
P.S. now I am off to work and to write two papers for two classes! Pray about that one now! :)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Can Insurance Play Doctor???

Well...my secondary insurance is playing doctor again. Last week they had rescheduled my PET scan from Friday to Tuesday (today) because they wanted to see the results of my CT scan before they approved my PET scan. Well, I got the call last night that my insurance did not approve the PET for me to do today. I am not too sure how to read in to this, so I am trying as hard as I can not to. So, I will still be going tomorrow morning for the results of my blood work, CT scan and mammogram. Hopefully my oncologist will tell me what to do next. Whether or not we will reschedule the PET and try again, or just not do it. We'll see, but continue to pray! I know God is in control, I just need to not be so stressed or worried.
Love to all,
Holly

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

We signed up!!!

Yes, Jonathan and I signed up for a 5k run. It is Saturday December 6th in Downtown Ft. Worth. It benefits the arthritis foundation and we will be wearing reindeer's and jingle bells on our shoes. Well, at least I will be doing that, not too sure that we can get Jonathan to do that:)! We are well on our way to losing the weight we wanted by January 1st, and are very happy about it. It is supposed to get somewhat cold this weekend and I am so excited about that as well.
Also, on another note, today marks the 4 year anniversary since I was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma, and I am proud to say that I am a survivor!!! I went today for blood work and I go tomorrow for my CT scan and Friday for my PET scan and a mammogram. FUN huh?!?!? All this testing, and I get no present in the end...well, if I am still clear, I guess you could say I get to keep my health.:) I went for blood work today, and no lie, I usually go in there and they have to stick me like 6 times before they find my (deep) vein. Well, I went in today and they found it on the first try YEAH!!!!!!!!!. However, I had to request the nurse that pokes the chemo patients because she has been the only one out of four phlebotomists(blood suckers, I like to call them) that can find my vein. Besides that she talks to me and makes me forget what she is doing, until I laugh and it jiggles the needle...oh well. Enough about that, but I would like for you to pray for me in the coming week. I do not get any results from all of my tests until Wednesday, and I do get SEVERELY nervous. I may not show it, but I get jittery and I can't think about anything else the whole week. Such is life every six months...besides all that, what do I have to fear, GOD IS IN CONTROL!!! He knows me and knows the desires of my heart and He is the ULTIMATE PHYSICIAN. But, I am still human and I need to get over my nervousness.

On another note, Jonathan and I are going to the A&M game in Waco when they play Baylor this Saturday! I am VERY excited about that, so for at least three hours, I will think of something other than test results. Gotta love those AGGIES!!!

I hope you all have a GREAT week and God Bless!!!

In Him,
Holly

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Who's your Leader?

So, with the day of election at hand, I thought I would give my two cents as well. I must start off with saying that I am a McCain/Palin supporter. I am a republican. However, I have heard many people very distraught over the fact that Obama might win the campaign. As much as I might not like it or believe he is the wrong choice, I must say that I am at peace with it BECAUSE, I know that God is still on His throne. The Bible tells us to be submissive to our leaders and government officials because God knows who they are and what there heart is all about. God is in control. Nothing has happened that He was surprised by. He did not wake up one day and say "whoops, I didn't mean to do that." No, God is sovereign and He knows what we need and when we need it. I am not saying that Obama is right for our country, don't hear me saying that at all! What I am saying is that God is right for our country and He has our best at heart.
Now, just so I am clear, this is not an Obama endorsement at all, I did not vote for him, nor would I vote democrat due to my Biblical foundation on the issues of abortion and gay marriage as well as my overall moral values.
Saying all of this...If you have not voted...GET OUT AND VOTE!!! Stand for your beliefs, even if they do not align with mine, let your voice be heard!
God Bless, and God Bless America!

Father, I pray for our next president, I pray that He would fear you and do the things you would have him do. Allow our country to come together during these times of crisis. Let Your light shine through us so that those that don't know you, but know us, will come to know You because they know us. AMEN!
Holly

Thursday, October 30, 2008

It's OVER!!! YEAH!!!

Well...I am sorry I have not written sooner. I have been preoccupied with school and projects and this little thing called the Fall Festival at church. The Fall Festival was last night and we had approximately 1200 people there within 2 hours. It was crazy but oh so fun!!!
Jonathan is in Baltimore right now (he missed the Fall Festival fun) looking out at the wonderful and beautiful bay...I'm jealous. But, he is stuck in a conference during the day, and only gets out at night, so I'm not too jealous.
I love fall time. I absolutely don't like Halloween, but the fall, I love. I love the colors of the trees (not in Texas though). I also love the weather. By the way, Jonathan is freezing to death right now and last night it was a wonderful 65 degrees for our Fall Festival :P This weather means that Thanksgiving and Christmas are coming which is a wonderful time of year. I turn 27 this year, however, I do not feel bad about getting older, but ask me in three years when I turn 30.
Not too much exciting has happened. I am grateful for keeping up with my school work, tax class and a full time job on top of that being a wife, daughter, sister and friend. It is tiring, but enjoyable. Just 3 more weeks of the tax class and 5 more weeks of school and I will be done until mid January...I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. After this semester I will be half way done with my master's degree WOOHOO!!!
Well, like I said, not too much new going on, but just thought I should update the blog!
Next time I will post some intriguing, life inspiring, thought provoking subjects...until then...

Love,
Holly

Sunday, October 12, 2008

ORLANDO... Here I come!!!

Good morning! I am sorry I have not blogged in a week, but not too much going on these days. Jonathan and I are still walking, and I am finding some muscles that have been dormant for a while. But, we are having fun. I am able to go to Orlando tomorrow through Thursday, so I am pretty excited to have some East coast time. Jonathan will have to walk/run on his own for a week, but I am going to be running in Disney Land. Well, next to it anyway. I'm excited, but nervous, I have NEVER flown by myself, and I really don't want to, but I guess I can since I am not paying for the trip. :) Pray for us this week as we embark on running. I am definitely NOT a runner, but if I want to do the race in December, I have to get used to it sometime. Our weight loss journey is still going smoothly. However, I am not telling (on my blog) how much I have lost until I get to about where I want to be...hopefully by Christmas! We'll see.

Jonathan and I also have another prayer request. We are more than likely going to go to Spain in March for a mission trip with our church. We are in need of prayer because we are not too sure how we are going to pay for it, we just know we are supposed to go. This is a HUGE leap of faith for us, but we are excited about the journey.

Until next time...

Monday, October 6, 2008

This is really MY family???

Saturday morning, Jonathan and I got up early and drove to Cleburne with my mother to watch my nephew Justin's soccer game and J.C's football game. They did a wonderful job and played their hardest. I was so happy to be out in the wonderful weather with my family watching the boys play. I got a bit of sun and almost blew away, but it was fun!
Dad met us at the football game and after the games we went back to Charlie's house and saw their puppy, an english bulldog named Clyde. He is adorable and HUGE!!! After that we told everybody goodbye and snuck over to one of their friends houses for a surprise birthday party for Charity, Charlie's fiance. Needless to say, she wasn't very surprised about the party, apparently Charlie cannot keep a secret so well. However, my sister Brandy and her husband Keary and their kids Kaitlyn and Riley came and so did my brother Casey. My Aunt Caryn and my grandmother showed up as well. If you remember in a recent post I told of how I LOVED getting together with my family. Well...this weekend did not disappoint at all.
First of all, our family's speaking volume is about 20 decibles higher than any normal person. Secondly, we love to make fun of one another. I was told my blogs were too long, but at least I now know they are reading them or at least attempting to read them; Casey and Charlie! Apparently my brother has come up with a great idea about his coming wedding to Charity. They have yet to set a date, however, he would like to go to Vegas and be married by Elvis wearing a blue 70's suit with the ruffles. Could this really be MY brother?
I never new of his fantasy wedding and apparently neither did anybody else until Charity e-mailed us all for some help on what to do with Charlie. Well, I think we took care of that for them. Now, they are going to do whatever Charity wants. Charlie has been relieved of all planning duties!!!
Well, at least our topic of conversation did not go to the norm, "how many squares of toilet paper you should use before you are titled too greedy." I know, my family is very weird, however, I love every one of them and wouldn't change any of them.
Until next time...

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Tired

Well...getting up at 5AM is tougher than expected. However, I do like the way I feel for most of the day after I get over the sleepiness. We have walked for 4 days straight this week and the new shoes definitely work better than the old ones. I'm a little sore, but not too bad. We'll see how I bowl tomorrow and if my soreness kicks in there or not.

Weekend plans consist of going to Cleburne to watch my nephews play some ball...basically I become a cheerleader when I watch them play. It is a lot of fun! I haven't seen my brother and his fiance and family in a while... so I am pretty excited.

Not much else is going on and at this time...my brain is unable to function. So, I am going to make my other brother Casey happy and write a short blog.

Tata for now!!!

Love you Casey!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Just a little quirky...



Alright guys, here is 7 interesting facts about myself...as if you already did not know...but for some, this may be terrifying :)

1. If I am doing a task, I have to fully complete it before I start another. I also do this with my food. I have to finish one side before I start another. This does not help too much when it comes to homework though.

2. When driving, I like to sing at the top of my mungs with the windows down and definitely making some funny faces...I guess you could call me a driving comic.

3. I love to play softball. I played for 15 years growing up and I still love playing.

4. I am a huge football junkie. Especially Aggies and Cowboys. Not that I know all the facts, but I love watching both of them.

5. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the new 2009 Dodge Ram. I plan on getting one one day, but I am thoroughly in love with it. So much so I probably google about it 3 times a day to see if there is any new pictures or videos about it. I have to add, I usually search during my lunvh break or when I am home. :)

6. I love a good chick flick and a comfy blanket and couch on Friday night at about 10:30pm.

7. Some people do not like to hang out with their families, however, I have two brothers and a sister and I love every moment when we get together with our parents. We have A LOT of fun!!!

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

Just walkin'

So, Jonathan and I decided last night to start walking along with our diet program. So, we set our alarm clock for 5:00am and I was so pumped last night going to bed knowing that this could only speed up our weight loss. So I slept pretty good until the alarm at 5AM!!! I woke up, totally not ready to go walking and just about to say, no let's go back to sleep when Jonathan starts shaking me and telling me to get up. So I rolled out of bed...literally... and got ready. We were outside walking by 5:08. I was pretty awake and ready to walk until we ran into about three yards with their sprinklers on. Yes, we got wet. But we walked on. We made it back by 5:30 and I decided I would do some dishes from his morning coffee and make us breakfast. Diet meals of course. I then watched some news and then got in the shower after he got out. I was in the car by 7:15 and made it to work by 7:30. This is a pretty big feat considering I normally have a very hard time waking up at 7am on a normal day.
So, I guess you can call us walkers now. We are going to a running store this weekend to get shoes to fit our feet and walking style. We are actually taking this walking thing pretty seriously. We hope to build up to running and eventually, if everything goes as planned, run in the Jingle Bell run in Sundance Square in Ft. Worth on December 6th. It is to benefit the arthritis foundation. We would also like to get in somewhat good of shape to walk/run in the Leukemia and Lymphoma society walk/run in November in Frisco. We'll see about that one though.
So, please pray for us as we are doing something that I have yet dare to do in my adult life and that is exercise on a REGULAR basis. I would love to join a softball team or do something a little more active once I get done with this busy semester. Jonathan is pretty good at keeping active as he does all of the lawn work and planting stuff. I just do not like doing that type of stuff...however, I don't mind watching him do it!:)
Jonathan left for Kentucky today and so I am by myself for walking tomorrow. I will go bowling with my mother...in place of my sister for their Friday morning bowling league and then come home and walk. I know I will probably need the prayers to make sure I stay motivated to do this. Also, our dog Zoe, our Goldendoodle, does not like the leash at all. Once you put it on her, she falls over and acts like you've just spamked her or something...maybe she's playing dead, I don't know. So pray that she will become at peace with the leash and we can start taking her and Toby with us. That would be fun!!!
Until next post...Happy walking!!!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Control

You know, sometimes I know it is hard to keep my cool and keep myself under control. However, when it comes to the workplace or out in public, somehow God grants me the wisdom and know how to keep it under control. I have witnessed, that for some people that is a little hard. Sometimes people can fly off the handle before they know all of the facts and then regret it after they come to know all of the facts. I feel for people like this as I know that I do that as well in certain circumstances. When I do not have enough sleep, or I am not feeling too well, I know what conversations, or people I need to avoid to stay in tact. I had not come across a verse that speaks to me in a way that calms me down during these rough, days when I am at my wits end however, I would take some verses out of context and use them to suit my needs. This morning, during my quiet time, God revealed to me a passage that I never looked at in this context, talking about keeping my cool and how to listen. This is how I know God is hearing my heart when it is needing some guidance and insight. It is the first verses of Proverbs.

"The proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel: for attaining wisdom and discipline; for understanding words of insight; for acquiring a disciplined and prudent life, doing what is right and just and fair; for giving prudence to the simple, knowledge and discretion to the young- let the wise listen and add to their learning, and let the discerning get guidance- for understanding proverbs and parables, the sayings and riddles of the wise. The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline."Proverbs 1:1-7.

It is quite an awesome feeling when you know God is speaking right to you. Now I know how to handle a situation in which I feel like all hope is lost and I am just going to explode. I will commit myself to memorizing these verses and remember that a listening ear is a learning ear. I vow to not take things at face value until I understand all of the ins and outs of the situation.

I am not blogging about this because I went out of control and I need to apologize to somebody, just the opposite, it is because I wanted to know what the Bible said about people getting to that point as I sometimes feel I could get there rather quickly.

What are your thoughts on people getting to the point of self explosion? Do you think God is speaking to this situation with these verses, or is it just that God is telling people to listen to His instructions? If you read on it tells you what will happen if you do not adhere to His teachings, but in Chapter 2, He talks about what happens if you look for wisdom. I don't know, maybe I am taking these verses out of context, but then again, God works through His words and I believe He gave me these verses to comfort me when I do go into a "mood" like that.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Amazing

It amazes me how some people believe they are above the law of God. Tonight during our evening service, our pastor spoke about the 10 commandments and he showed a clip of a man using "The Way of the Master" witnessing tool. This guy on the clip did not think that God was so black and white. He could not see or even fathom that God would judge him on the little white lies he told, or looking at another woman lustfully or even stealing something when he was younger. It only makes sense that if God created the law, He must judge them by it. This guy thought that God would have sympathy for him and allow him "through" so to speak. So the interviewer asked him if a robber or thief took the stand against a judge and the evidence was mounted against him and everyone saw him steal and he admitted to it, would the judge just let him go? NO!!! God is the same way, every sin we commit must be punished and therefore God had to send His son to pay the price for our sins so that those who believe can be saved. I can picture it now. God says..."Holly Page" I would say, "Sir" "Did you commit these sins against me?" "Yes sir I am guilty as charged" (crying I might add). Just then, Jesus walks in and says, "Father, I have paid the price for her sins and she is clean before you today." God would then say. "Holy Page, please come I have been preparing a place for you." I would walk through His pearly gates and worship Him for all eternity.

It amazes me that all we are asked is to believe in Jesus and that He died for our sins. Sins that could not be paid for other than the atoning sacrifice, pure sacrifice. All I have to do is Confess my sins and believe with all my heart and Jesus writes my name in the book of life. AMAZING!!!

Back to this guy, even after he admitted to his many sins, he did not see a need for God, he had created His own image of God, which by the way is the second commandment..."do not bare any graven images of me. (God) I thought that was funny, because right in the conversation after admitting to breaking three of the ten laws, He breaks another saying that the God that he serves is not jealous and will not judge him for these things (a graven image=thought or picture of a god that is not the God of the Bible).

People, I am here to tell you that God is a jealous God and He loves you with all of His heart. He wants to be with you for eternity. He has given everything...His only son in order that we may have life more abundantly and free in heaven with Him for eternity.

I pray that if you do not know Him, that you would seek out a minister, or a Christian that you know would guide you to Him. If you do not know anyone like that, please open you Bible and read the book of John and then Ephesians. Study His word!!!

Please do not conform to this world...study the word for yourself and come to know the saing knowledge of Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and savior. Come to know the One True God!!!

"I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you." Psalm 119:11
In Him,
Holly

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Lessons in marriage

I know I have not been married as long as some of the people reading this, but I have to say that I have learned a lot since Jonathan and I got married. Like, just as I am sitting here writting this, Jonathan is rubbing in my face the fact that he got something right and I got it wrong. Well, other than the fact that you have to make them think they are smarter than you are, I have learned a few other things. I learned that it really is tough to go to bed and wake up next to the same person every night. Who knew that when you go to bed next to a handsome, breath smells good, man, you wake up to a guy who's breath smells as if the dump truck emptied it's content in his mouth, :) (hehe) and his chin is very scratchy. I have learned that in order to get what I want, I have to make him think he thought of it or somehow it benefits him. He constantly asks me if he looks hot which I guess is good because he wants to take care of himself. I guess I could stroke his ego a little bit more. He likes to argue for the sake of arguing, but then again, so do I. He has some of the most annoying habits. However, I learned how incredibly caring he is. He will help clean the house and do the dishes and do the laundry without me having to even ask him. He takes incredibly good care of our lawn and it always looks the best on the street. He loves me without a shadow of a doubt. I know I am not exactly the easiest person to live with, but he puts up with me everyday. He is there for my highest highs and my lowest lows. He sees me when I am angry, when I am sad, and when I am in the best mood in the world. He loves me just for being me, and I love that about him. I love that he is so incredibly smart. He can light the room up with just his smile. When he looks at me I know he sees me, he is not looking beyond me or judging me. He means more to me than anything in this world and I am so glad that God brought him into my life.
So, Jonathan, if you are reading this, I love you with all of my heart and I am so thrilled that you are my husband. I love walking this highway called life with you. You have grown so much spiritually and emotionally. I love watching you work and play. You are an amazing man of God and I can't wait to see what God has in store for us. You are my one and only and I love you so much!
Love,
Holly

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Fears

Fears are a funny thing. They can change monthly, weekly or even daily. There are many things to fear in this world like snakes, spiders, well for me, amphibians of any kind. However, there are also daily fears that do not seem to consume our daily minds, but are still there such as "Will I make it to work?" or "Did my husband make it to work?" I guess you could actually call these things worries, but for this post, we will call them fears since that is the title. Personally, fears for me may be a little different than most. I fear that I will not be able to have kids, I fear that my cancer may some day come back, or that due to having cancer, I may not live as long. Fear, sometimes can be a crippling thing. I can find myself having doubts about having kids because I may not be around, or that I don't want to try because I fear failure and not being able to give my husband a child.
However, whatever fears I may have, God tells me not to fear. Isaiah 41:10 says "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Proverbs 29:25 says "Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe." These two verses tell me that I should not fear the things of this world. There is one thing and only one thing that I should fear and that is God. This brings me to my life verse of 1 Samuel 12:24 which says "Fear the LORD and serve Him faithfully for consider what great things He has done for you." As most of you know, I was diagnosed with cancer 4 years ago this November 12th and ever since then I have held tightly to this verse. God has given me the gift that some do not have and that is a testimony that can help others and bring them closer to Him. If I had to suffer for a while in order for others to come to know Him, I can definitely say to God thank you for using me. In my worldly mind, I know I would've rather not gone through the pain, treatments and hair loss, but who knows how God has used this illness to bring others to Him. This verse in 1 Samuel also serves me today in that it tells me to serve God no matter what I may be going through because ultimately He gets all of the glory.
So, when Jonathan and I decide to step into another phase of our lives as far as children are concerned, I would like to say that I only fear God, but that is something God is working on with me because I cannot seem to give up these thoughts of failure. so whoever may be reading this, I ask for prayer.
Well, as far as health is concerned, I just received a clean bill of health this past August. Everything is still clear and running smoothly. I go back in November for a PET scan and full blood work. I love my oncologist in Southlake. She is a great Christian lady and I feel as though she would tell me the truth and not just what I want to hear. She really is a very personable person.
Well, now that I am done rambling and spilling my fears, I do have to say that I am grateful for this blog and the opportunity to let out some thoughts and things weighing on my heart. I am sure you guys now know more than you wanted to but thank you for reading:)

In Him,
Holly

Monday, September 8, 2008

Our First Page

Hey guys!!! Welcome to our blog! We decided to enter the new phase of communication with a blog page and without a doubt, this will prove to be a challenge to update regularly and probably something I could get addicted to just like Facebook. These pages will soon fill up with posts from both Jonathan and I but before we get started, I would like to give you all a little update as to what has been happening for the past three years. Yes, that is correct, Jonathan and I have been married for three years as of August 20th. We have moved from Abilene to Haslet which is in North Fort Worth and are loving living back in the metroplex. Jonathan is a contracting manager for FAA which has brought him a lot of happiness, success and busyness over the past four months that he has been there. He loves the people he works with and the hours. The best part is that his job is only a 7 mile commute. Jonathan is also the director of our Sunday school class at church and does a wonderful job of directing and planning events. Holly is working at First Baptist Keller as the Children's Minister and is learning and growing each day as she seeks the Lord's guidance. She is also working on her master's in Childhood Ministry at Dallas Baptist University. We have a cat named Gracie and two dogs. Zoe is a goldendoodle (golden retriever and poodle mix) and she is about 7 months old and Toby, our dachshund is 9 months old. Life is a lot of fun but yet, it seems so busy. That is all I have for now, but stay tuned to the next page!!! :)